sunday and balance

I love balance.  I like to wave at it as I swing by between extremes.

Today I finally got caught up on my laying around time.  It’s been several weeks of go go go with no days off, which is really unacceptable.  I want to stay on top of my schedule from now on and try not to get stuck like this again.  I’ve decided not to take on any new work commitments before the end of April (unless it’s something really amazing) – and not so much as a coffee chat with a friend can be added for the next two weeks.  That’s just how it’s got to be, lest I completely wear myself out.

And what good can I be to anyone else if I’m completely worn out?

Today I got up, had breakfast, and hit the couch.  I read, napped, read some more.  I got online long enough to verify that there was nothing on TV that I wanted to watch, and read some more.  It was lovely.  I feel somewhat back to center.  I’d love it if balance could come every day, but the reality of life is that sometime balance comes over the course of weeks, sometimes over the course of years, and for the really big tumultuous stuff, over the course of generations.  But there’s always balance.  As much as I can bring into my daily life the better.  Hence my dinner tonight.  I wanted pizza, so I had a bowl of dandelion greens with it and called it balance.  Not too shabby.

I love this time of year – Spring.  Everything is blooming, peaking out, getting born.  It’s  exciting to watch.  I walk around the same few blocks in my neighborhood every couple of days, and it’s amazing to see how fast things are changing.  I’m in awe of each little seedling’s will to live.  It’s humbling, really,  considering how flip I can be with my gift of life.  I found a morning glory seedling once that had made its way eight inches under a rock before popping its head out into the sun.  That force of will, that desperate commitment to life – to finding the sun – inspires me.  For all the times I’ve been frustrated and haven’t had a sense of light at the end of my personal tunnel, that little seedling, unburdened by ego and “intelligence” had the good sense to keep trudging and faith that just a few more inches would bring salvation.  I’d be well served to keep my aspirations as simple and as pure.

Dessert tonight!  Brownie with pistachio ice cream.  Another example of balance – warm and cold, smooth and crunchy.  Ingredient wise I’m disappointed by the Ben and Jerry’s Pistachio, I’d really like to stick to Haagen Dazs but they were out of Macadamia Brittle and once I got Pistachio on the brain I couldn’t be swayed.  The brownie was homemade – by me, no less – and consisted of nothing more than garbanzo beans, carob chips, agave nectar, eggs and baking powder.  It’s not every day you get a brownie that’s high fiber, high protein and sugar free.   Rock on.

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